JOURNEY OF FAITH
Day One Hundred Forty-two
WHY DO I EXIST
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
MINISTRATION OF THE INDWELLING HOLY SPIRIT
Friends & neighbors; brothers and sisters…
If you remember nothing else from the pages of “WHY DO I EXIST”…never forget this: GOD LOVES YOU.
God’s Love 4 U is…
Unconditional
Unfailing
Unchanging
Unending
Beloved…I love you because of Who I am…not as a response to who you are, or what you do, or what you refrain from doing.
If only you would know in the depths of your soul, if only you would just fully embrace, the greatness of My love I have lavished upon you…that the most intense desire of My heart is to gather you to Myself as one of My Own children, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings. That is the depth of My love for you.
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AWESOME POWER OF GOD
When Thou didst terrible things which we looked not for, Thou camest down, the mountains flowed down at Thy Presence. For since the beginning of the world men have not heard, nor perceived by the ear, neither hath the eye seen, O God, beside Thee, what He hath prepared for him that waiteth for Him. Even so, the things of God knoweth no man, but the Spirit of God. Now we have received, not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit which is of God; that we might know the things that are freely given to us of God. [Isa 64:3-4; 1 Cor 2:11-12]
IT IS MY WORK, NOT YOURS
My beloved child…I Myself am both the God Who Personally does the work, and the One Who brings about the results revealed by My Holy Spirit. It is My work, not yours; the results belong to Me, not to you.
You may confidently proclaim, and know beyond the shadow of any doubt it is true: Doubtless Thou art our Father, though Abraham be ignorant of us, and Israel acknowledge us not: Thou, O LORD, art our Father, our Redeemer; Thy Name is from everlasting. [Isa 63:16]
Yet: A son honors his father, and a servant his master. If I am a Father, where is the honor due Me? If I am a Master, where is the respect due Me?” says the LORD Almighty. [Mal 1:6]
Unless God comes down “as the melting fire burneth, to make His Name known to His adversaries,” your labors are comparatively fruitless and of no avail. Unless the Lord build the house, you labor in vain who build it.
WAITING ON GOD INDISPENSABLE
You must wait upon God, My beloved child; you must cry with a cry that never rests, “Oh that Thou wouldest rend the Heavens, that Thou wouldest come down, that the mountains might flow down at Thy Presence!” [Isa 64:1-2]
You must desire and believe, you must ask and expect, that God will do unlooked-for things! You must set your faith on a God of Whom men do not know what I have prepared for them that wait for Me. Your wonder-working God, Who can surpass all your expectations, must be the God of your confidence! You must enlarge your heart to wait upon your God as One Who can do exceedingly abundantly above what you could ever ask or even think!
And therefore will the LORD wait, that He may be gracious unto you, and therefore will He be exalted, that He may have mercy upon you; blessed are all they that wait for Him! [Isa 30:18]
Child of God! Look at the ministries that are being carried out “in My Name;” how much it is in the wisdom of man and literary culture, and how little in demonstration of My Spirit and of Power!
Look at the unity of the body; how little there is of the manifestation of the power of a Heavenly love binding My children into one.
Look at holiness; how little the world sees of the holiness of My Divine Son Jesus reflected in My children.
Look at Christ-like humility and crucifixion to the world; how little the world sees in My children, who are set apart to be mirrors of the Almighty, the life of Christ My Son in Heaven and in whom Christ My Son and Heaven lives.
Unless God comes down “As when the melting fire burneth, the fire causeth the waters to boil, to make Thy name known to Thine adversaries, that the nations may tremble at Thy Presence!”…all your labors are fruitless and of no avail! Have you never yet understood?
In the power of your flesh…reliance upon your human capabilities and capacities, by your own efforts and in your own strength, according to your own wisdom, knowledge, and understanding…you are hopelessly powerless, hopelessly impotent, hopelessly helpless, to do anything that is good or pleasing or acceptable to God.
LIVING OUT OF THE POWER OF THE HOLY SPIRIT
Abba Father…I know that the Eternal Power and Eternal Worth of the Blood of Your Divine Son Jesus has guaranteed and secured that Your Holy Spirit was indeed given as Your Eternal Gift to dwell in me…never to leave me, never to forsake me…and that I am to live my everyday life out of the Power of Your Holy Spirit and not out of the power of my sin-enslaved human nature. I acknowledge I am to give Him free reign to place me where I am to be, lead me where I am to go, show me what I am to do to participate together with Him in His work, give me the thoughts I am to think and present, the words I am to speak or write.
SPIRITUAL DISCERNMENT
But Father, how do I know whether the service I am being prompted to engage in for You is the leading of Your Holy Spirit and not the leading of my human spirit? This is one of the greatest dangers that I am asking You to protect me from…the danger of embracing a thought to engage in service for You where the origin of the thought is my human spirit and not the prompting of Your Holy Spirit.
The danger is that I would be inclined to make a decision according to the leading of my flesh to proceed with this work, asking You to stop me if it is not Your will for me. In other words…I haven’t heard at all from You, Father; I haven’t had any leadings nor promptings of the Holy Spirit to do this work. I haven’t been in prayer inquiring about this work, whether doing this work is Your will for me. But I have decided to proceed anyway…so, stop me if You don’t want me to do this. Forbid it, Father, that I should ever have this attitude!
Keep it ever clear before me: I am not to proceed…with anything… unless You lead me by Your Holy Spirit to specifically do so. No matter how good the ministration I am thinking of doing is…I know I am NOT to proceed with doing it without Your Spirit showing me plainly, clearly, beyond the shadow of any doubt to do so. Enable me by the Power of Your enabling grace to watch for You and wait before You, look off unto You and listen for Your voice…
- Confirming to me that the origin of my thought is the prompting of Your Holy Spirit and not the prompting of my human spirit.
Where did this thought come from?
Is it a desire of my flesh, a longing of my flesh, to satisfy a selfish motive, a self-serving agenda, a desire to gain something for myself?
Is the thought from Satan…a distraction, a deception, an attempt to draw my heart away from the good works and Your will You have planned in advance for me to do?
Your Divine Son Jesus said, “I only do what My Father shows Me to do; I only speak the words My Father gives Me to speak.” - Confirming to me that the purpose for my doing this is obedience to Your clearly revealed will in this matter.
Am I doing it to fulfill a responsibility of a ministry You have given me, Father, in accordance with Your plans, purposes, and will as revealed to me by Your Holy Spirit? Or is it a responsibility resulting from my own self-life, self-interests, self-will… according to the plans, purposes, and will of my flesh?
Then Jesus said, “Here I am, I have come…it is written about Me in the scroll. I desire to do Your will, O My God; Your Law is within My heart. Not My will, but Thy will be done.” - Confirming to me that the authority for my proceeding to do this is the leading of Your Holy Spirit to do so.
Who gave me the go-ahead to proceed, to put this thought into action? Under whose authority am I going to proceed? Is the leading of Your Holy Spirit the authority behind my proceeding to do this work, or is it the leading of my flesh?
Your Divine Son Jesus said, “I only do what My Father shows Me to do; I only speak the words My Father gives Me to speak.” - Confirming to me that the power for this ministration is the Power of Your Holy Spirit, given to me for the purpose of fulfilling this responsibility.
As I proceed in doing this, in carrying out this thought into action, in accomplishing what I have set out to do…whose power am I relying upon to do it…the Power of the Spirit, or the power of the flesh? Is what I am doing the ministration of the Spirit, in the Power of the Spirit? Or is it the ministration of the flesh, in the power of the flesh…relying upon my human capabilities and capacities, my own efforts and strength, my own wisdom, knowledge, and understanding?
Are you so foolish? After beginning with the Spirit, are you now trying to attain your goal by human effort? [Gal 3:3] - Working in me a godly motive for doing this…to bring glory, honor, and praise to Your Holy Name.
What is my motive…the motivation behind my service? Is it my desire to bring glory, honor, and praise to Your Name, Father? Or is it to call attention to myself…to obtain glory and honor for myself…fishing for the praise of men?
Jesus declared, “He who speaks on his own authority seeks to win honor for himself. He whose teaching originates with himself seeks his own glory. But He Who seeks the Glory and is eager for the honor of Him Who sent Him…He is true; and there is no unrighteousness or falsehood or deception in Him.” - Working in me a manner that is well-pleasing to You in going about fulfilling this responsibility.
Am I doing it with a good, cheerful attitude and a sweet disposition? A bad, begrudging attitude and a sour disposition? May the God of peace…Who through the Blood of the Eternal Covenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great Shepherd of the sheep…equip you with everything good for doing His will, and may He work in you what is well-pleasing to Him, through Jesus Christ, to Whom be Glory for ever and ever.
CONFIRMATION OF THE SPIRIT
Abba Father…I know beyond the shadow of any doubt that if my proceeding with a ministration is the result of an unwavering child-like trust in Your will for me, an unreserved child-like dependence upon the Power of Your Holy Spirit, and an unquestioning child-like obedience to the leading of the Spirit…the confirmation of the truth that it is indeed Your work and not mine will be an unruffled child-like rest and an unclouded child-like carefree joy. My soul will be peaceful and calm, tranquil and unruffled.
My beloved child…you will know in your spirit, beyond the shadow of any doubt, that I have indeed called you to a particular ministration as My messenger, My ministering spirit, My watchman, My prophet…by the confirmation of My Holy Spirit within you:
- My Holy Spirit will open doors for you that no man can shut, and the waters will be parted before you to open the way through.
- You will have the anointing of My Holy Spirit upon you, giving you capabilities and capacities beyond what you physically have. It will be so evident that you will exclaim in wonder, “Whoa, Lord; this is not me, this is You!”
- You will hear the voice of the Lord, or clearly sense My leading, “This is the way; walk ye in it.”
- You will experience that what I call you to do, I will also enable you to do. My Holy Spirit will give you Divine wisdom, knowledge, and understanding in what you are called to do.
- You will become the target of Satan’s fury, as he endeavors to fill your mind and your thoughts with distractions so as to lead you away from focusing on the work I have given you to do.
Satan will endeavor to fill your mind and your thoughts with deceptions, so as to mislead you with lies and counterfeit leadings of the Spirit.
He will endeavor to draw your heart away from the Holy of Holies with attractions and affections that compete with your attraction to Me, and your affection for Me. - You will be filled with the Holy Spirit and experience an exuberant joy in the Lord, testifying to My Name and speaking the Word of God boldly.
- You will experience the manifestation of the Holy Spirit in your life…singing songs, hymns, spiritual songs, and making melody in your heart to God.
- You will experience prayer, in accordance with God’s will, moving the hand of God, and
- you will experience the blessings of obedience and faithfulness that come from the leading of the Spirit in your life. I will show you My Glory; you will see it with your own eyes, and you will have occasion to testify to My great Name and mighty Power.
I WILL SHOW YOU MY GLORY
My Father’s ear is attentive to the voice of His child, and He loves to give His child little tokens of His Divine Love whenever my requests are within the framework of His plans, purposes, His will. Scripture tells me,“You have not because you ask not…or you ask with wrong, selfish motives.”
My Father loves to show His child His Glory…that I may see it with my own eyes, and thereby have occasion to testify to His great Name and mighty Power. I have testified to it continually, and I will do so again:
https://preservechristianfamily.org/category/testimonies/
ABBA FATHER, BRING GLORY TO YOUR NAME
That is my motive…to proclaim Your Glory.
I do not have a selfish motive, a self-serving agenda, something I want to gain for myself. I want the people of the world to know how great You are, Abba Father! Show me Your Glory; bring Glory to Your Name; bring Your blessings and Your salvation before the souls of Men!
I have gazed attentively into the Sanctuary and I have beheld Your Power and Your Glory! Formerly, my ears had only heard of You; but now my eyes have seen You and have seen Your Glory! In the presence of the congregation, I will proclaim Your Great Name and Your Mighty Power according to all that my eyes shall see!
I proclaim to you Christ Jesus…the One Who existed from the beginning, from Eternity Past, Whom I have heard with the ears of my own inner being, and have seen with my own spiritual eyes. I have gazed upon Him and have spiritually touched Him with my own hands. He is the Word of Life. His Life is continually being revealed to me; I have seen it and testify to it, and I proclaim to you that He is the One Who is Eternal Life. He eternally existed with the Father, and is now continually being manifested afresh and anew to me.
I proclaim to you what I have personally seen and heard in the depths of my soul, so that you also may enjoy this same fellowship together with us. The fellowship I continually enjoy is with the Father and with His Son, Christ Jesus. I am writing these things so that you also may fully share together with me in this fullness of joy. This is our birth-right as children of the Most High God!
The Cost Of Going All The Way With Christ
I heard the voice of the Lord calling, “Whom shall I send?Who will go for Us?”
In the Power of your indwelling Holy Spirit, I respond, “Here am I, Lord; send me.”
Blessed Jesus, Your steadfast love for me…so amazing, so Divine…constrains me…it constrains me to freely surrender unto You my soul, my life, my all…it beckons my soul, my life, my all…
because I am convinced that You died on behalf of every soul who was ever brought into existence, and therefore every soul was included in, and participated together with You in, Your sacrificial death on behalf of Mankind…available to any soul who would freely and wholeheartedly choose to appropriate as their own the rich eternal blessings of Your finished work on that cross at Calvary, through their solemn marriage vows to become Your eternal bride, Blessed Jesus…the bride of Christ.
And since You died on behalf of every soul, I who now live joined together with You as Your eternal bride…the bride of Christ, sealed with my solemn marriage vows to You in our Sacred Covenant relationship…can no longer live for myself…but wholly surrendered unto You Who died for me…on my behalf and in my place…and Who was raised again to life for my sake, that I may now share together with You Your resurrection life out from the dead.
Abba Father…my new life is hidden now together with You in Christ Jesus Your Son!When Christ Jesus, Who is my life, appears once again on this Earth…no longer as the Lamb of God but this time in all of His Majesty, Glory, and Power…then I also shall appear together with Him in Glory. [2 Cor 5:14-15; Col 3:4]
ETERNAL THANKS, UNCEASING PRAISE
Abba Father…I gratefully acknowledge, with a heart of eternal thanksgiving and unceasing praise, all You have Personally done for me. I owe my soul to You; and so, in response, I freely lay my life on the altar of sacrifice, wholly surrendered unto You as Your bond-slave, wholly given for the blessing and the salvation of souls. That is my life, that is what I live for; that is my eternal existence. Period.
Because of Your steadfast love for me, I know there is nothing You would ask of me…to be for You or to do for You, to learn of You or just, perhaps, to suffer because it is part of Your plans, Your purposes, Your will for me…that would be unreasonable, or too much to ask. Therefore, I need no longer be anxious…about anything…as I realize this: You know the plans You have for me…plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me a hope and a future.I am Your workmanship, created in Christ Jesus Your Son to do good works, which You Yourself have planned in advance for me to do.
And so, Father, in the Power of Your enabling grace, manifested and exercised in me through the Eternal Power of Your indwelling Holy Spirit…it no longer matters to me…
where You place me, or how…whether in serious perplexity, or in positions of great difficulty, or in circumstances of great pressure and trial;
It no longer matters whether You place me at all, or when;
It no longer matters where You lead me to go, or what You show me to do; what thoughts You give me to think and present, what words to speak or write.
These things are rather for You to consider than for me.For in the easiest position, still, You must give me Your grace; and in the most difficult, Your grace is more than sufficient.It is enough for me knowing that You know why You place me where I am…whether to do, or to learn, or just, perhaps, to suffer.It no longer matters to me what I do or what I suffer.All that matters is that You keep my heart lovingly and joyfully joined with Your will!
ANOINTING OF THE CALLED
God is calling you, and desires to anoint you, to be part of His holy remnant. Whether you are a pastor, a Christian leader, or a member of the congregation…this is what the Lord says: To the pastors I have placed in charge of My churches concerningyour congregation and each individual member, write:This is the last call. I have wooed you so many times. This time, I say to you, in great love…there is a cost to an anointing; this is not a light, frivolous matter.The anointing is not cheap. If you say in your heart, “We should go up and take possession of the land, for we can certainly do it,”if you pay the cost of the anointing, I’ll open doors for you, I’ll speak through you, and I’ll use you again like you have never conceived. The church and any members of the congregationembracing My call will move in the Power of My Holy Spirit, and bring great Glory to God!
Don’t miss what God is about to do. The time of being pumped up is over. I am tired of your solemn assembly’s, I’m tired of your sacrifices…they’re not from the heart. The time has come; I need you, and I love you…but if you ignore this trumpet call…if you say in your heart, “We will not listen,” I am going to remove your anointing. You’re not going to have anything to say to anybody; you’re going to be dry. You are going into the desert…I will love you there, and I will keep you in My care, but you can’t go with Me, and I won’t go with you.
Beloved child of God…let My Holy Spirit open your heart, and respond from the depths of your being, “God, once again, use Your church; use Your child.Now…not another time…tonight, let something in my heart respond to Your call.”
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0vmE2nbVctE [Note: this video opens in the middle of a worship song, which continues to the 2:15 minute mark before Pastor Wilkerson is introduced as the speaker]
GOD’S HOLY REMNANT
Just as God raised up a remnant of just 1% of all the men Gideon had marshaled to fight against the Midianites, even sothere is a holy remnant whom God is raising up for Himself in these Last Days, called to the ministration of the Indwelling Holy Spirit…a Godly remnant of the 1% of His children who will not bow down, who will not shrink back, who will not compromise, who will remain steadfast and immovable in their commitment to follow the Lamb whithersoever He goes.God’s holy remnant is called to a life of self-sacrifice and self-denial.You cannot become My holy remnant without being willing to sacrifice your desire for anything and everything you own.
Obedience is what characterizes the life of My child…obedience continually and unceasingly day and night. You are called to a life of obedience. Obedience is better than sacrifice; rebellion is as sinful as witchcraft, and stubbornness as evil as worshiping idols. [1 Sam 15:22,23]
UNCLOUDED CHILD-LIKE CARE-FREE JOY
Abba Father…my soul glorifies You; my spirit rejoices in my Father and my God! I am Your child, now and forever; may it be unto me according to all You have planned for me! This is surely the blessed life of deep and intimate personal relationship with You:
my waiting upon God…watching and waiting, looking off unto You and listening for Your voice…with an unwavering child-like trust and an unreserved child-like dependence, with a joyful expectation and an excited anticipation,
for You to reveal Yourself to me ever more deeply and intimately, and Your plans, Your purposes, Your will for me…
SO I MAY THEN RESPOND, with an unquestioning child-like obedience, to every leading and prompting of Your Holy Spirit, cooperating with the Power of His enabling grace Who works in me both to will and to do.
Blessed Holy Spirit…You are the Divine Nature dwelling in me, Whose Power in me continually guarantees and secures my capability to live my everyday life:
faithful to my solemn marriage vows as the bride of Christ;
faithfully within the Holy of Holies and the inaccessible Light of the Glory of the unclouded Presence of my Father in our Sacred Covenant relationship.
My soul, wait thou only upon God!
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If you have never been born again,
or you are not sure whether you have been born again,
or you have been living your life as a lukewarm Christian and would now like to recommit your life and enter into a deep and intimate relationship with Christ Jesus in preparation for the soon coming marriage supper of the Lamb…
then I counsel you to get alone with God, read the solemn marriage vows presented below you must make to become the bride of Christ and thereby be born-again, and with sincerity of heart from within the depths of your being, acknowledge before God, “I DO.”
MARRIAGE VOWS
SPIRITUAL BRIDE OF CHRIST
- Do you believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Divine Son in the Triune God, the Lamb of God Who came into this world to become the One only, all-sufficient, atoning sacrifice through His death on a cross and subsequent resurrection, thereby securing forgiveness for your sins and restoring your relationship with God that had been severed by sin?
- Do you now solemnly vow before God to give yourself to be the bride of Christ, receiving Jesus the Christ into your life in a spiritual marriage, promising to honor and obey Him as both Lord over your life and Savior of your soul?
- To be joined inseparably together with Him in a Sacred Covenant relationship…an Eternal living union of oneness through the new life to be conceived in you by the Holy Spirit…
- To have and to hold Him, above all others and above all else this world has to offer, as the choicest, most precious treasure of your heart…
- To love and to cherish Him, above all others and above all else this world has to offer, reserving for Him alone your sweetest, most tender affections…
- For better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, all the days of your life, until death of this body brings you to be together with Him in Heaven for all eternity?
God Himself has given this testimony concerning His Son: I have granted you eternal life, and this life is given through union with My Divine Son Jesus.
Whoever is joined together with My Son in a living union of oneness
possesses that life;
whoever is NOT joined together with My Son in a living union of oneness
does NOT possess that life.
I have written this to you so that you who place your trust in Christ My Son will know, beyond the shadow of any doubt, that you do now indeed have eternal life. [1 John 5:9-13]
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ENDURE TO THE END
Behold, I am coming quickly. Hold on to what you have, so that no one will deprive you of your crown. Everyone who overcomes by means of their faith…I will make a pillar in the Sanctuary of My God. Never again will you leave it. I will write on you the name of My God and you will be a citizen in the city of My God…the new Jerusalem…which will come down out of Heaven from My God; I will also write on you My Own new name.
Holy:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xcx2O9WXvn8&feature=youtu.be
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