WAITING ON GOD
Ps 62:5-6: My soul, wait thou only upon God; for my expectation is from Him. He only is my rock and my salvation. Luke 9:23: And He said to them all, if any man will come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow Me.
My soul, wait thou only upon God; if there are other secret confidences I am relying on, they will prevent the blessing that was expected. There is but one God, but one source of life and happiness for the heart; He only is my rock. My soul, wait thou only upon Him. I desire to be good…there is none good but God, and there is no possible goodness but what is received directly from Him. I have sought to be holy…there is none holy but the Lord, and there is no holiness but what He by His Spirit of Holiness every moment breathes in me.
My soul, wait thou only upon God Himself. I am to let the living God alone, none other and nothing but He, be my hope…not any people nor any things. Eyes and hands and feet, mind and thought, may have to be intently engaged in the duties of this life; even so, I need only just let my soul, my very self, my inmost being, with all its power, continually wait upon God.
My soul, wait thou only upon God! I am an immortal Spirit, created not for this world, but for eternity and for God. O, my soul! Realize thy destiny! Know thy privilege, and wait thou only upon God! I must beware of the interest of religious thoughts and exercises and studies deceiving me, and taking the place of waiting on God Himself! I must beware of my two great enemies: the World and Self. Beware of the terrible fascination of the World and the flesh…lest any Earthly satisfaction or enjoyment keep me back from saying, “I will go to God, my exceeding joy.” Let a man deny himself; the saints deny themselves in everything. I must let God be ALL my salvation and ALL my desire. I need to say continually, with an undivided heart, “From Him cometh my expectation; He only is my rock; I shall not be moved.”
I must never forget these two foundational truths: my absolute helplessness; the absolute sufficiency of my God. I am to enter deeply into the entire sinfulness of all that is of my self, and think not of letting self have aught to say one single moment…in anthing. I am to enter deeply into my utter and unceasing impotence ever to change what is evil in me, or to bring forth anything that is spiritually good. I need only just enter deeply into my relation of utter dependence as creature upon God, to receive from Him every moment what He gives. I am to enter deeper still into His covenant of redemption, with His promise to restore more gloriously than ever what I have lost, and by His Son and Spirit to give within me unceasingly His actual Divine Presence and Power. No words can tell, no heart conceive, the riches of the glory of this mystery of the Father and of Christ. Our God, in the infinite tenderness and Omnipotence of His Love, waits to be my Life and my Joy.
This is the blessed life of deep and intimate personal relationship with God: my waiting upon God…watching and waiting, looking off unto Him and listening for His voice…with an unwavering child-like trust and an unreserved child-like dependence, with a joyful expectation and an excited anticipation, for God to reveal to me His plans, His purposes, His will, a deeper revelation of Who He is, SO I MAY THEN RESPOND with an unquestioning child-like obedience to every leading and prompting of the Holy Spirit, cooperating with the power of His enabling grace Who works in me both to will and to do. My soul, wait thou only upon God!