WITH THE HEART
Ps 31:24: Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the LORD!
The much needed lesson for all who desire to learn truly and fully what waiting on God is: It is with my heart I must wait upon God. “As a man’s heart is, so he is before God.” All of my waiting depends upon the state of my heart. I can advance no further or deeper into the Holy place of God’s Presence to wait on Him there, than my heart is prepared for it by the Holy Spirit. It is in this that one of the chief causes must be sought of the feebleness of a Christian’s life. Many Christians have no sense of the great difference between the religion of the mind and the religion of the heart, and the former is far more diligently cultivated than the latter. They know not how infinitely greater the heart is than the mind. Scripture tells me: Prov 3:5-6: Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths. True…my mind has to gather knowledge from God’s Word, and prepare the food by which my heart with its inner life is to be nourished. But here comes in a terrible danger, of my leaning to my own understanding, and trusting in my apprehension of Divine things. The understanding deals with conceptions and images of Divine things…only images and shadows…but it cannot reach the real life of my soul. It is with my heart I am to believe, and come in touch with God. It is in my heart God has given His Spirit, to be there to me the Presence and the Power of God working in me. In all my religion it is my heart that must trust and love and worship and obey. My mind is utterly impotent in creating or maintaining spiritual life within me…my heart must wait in faith and trust upon God for Him to work it in me. Reason may tell me what God’s Word says, but it can do nothing to the feeding of my soul on the Bread of Life…this my heart alone can do by its faith and trust in God.
My deepest need then, when I have studied or heard God’s Word, is to cease from my thoughts, to put no trust in them, and to waken my heart to open itself before God, and seek living fellowship with Him. I am to believe in my heart through faith what I can never know with my mind…and seek living fellowship with Him. Faith is a living relationship with God…not merely thoughts about Him, or studying about Him, or hearing about Him. My soul, with its powers and capabilities of the human mind, can only learn about God…from the information it gathers, processes, and then forms conclusions. My soul is not capable of having any personal contact with God. Only my spirit, where in my heart God has given His Holy Spirit, is capable of having personal contact with God…to commune with Him and experience Him and come to personally know Him. Faith is not just knowing about Him…it is knowing Him, personally and intimately, by spending time being with Him and experiencing Him, one to one, heart to heart. There is an Eternal separation between knowing God and knowledge about God. The personal experience of God is what deepens my knowing God, and separates from mere knowledge about God: My ears had heard of You, but now my (Spiritual) eyes have seen You. [Job 42:5].
This is now the blessedness of waiting upon God…that I confess the impotence of all my thoughts and efforts, and set myself still to bow my heart before Him in holy silence, and to trust Him to renew and strengthen His own work in me. Remember always the great difference between knowing with my mind and believing with my heart: I need only present my heart before Him as that wonderful part of my spirit in which God reveals Himself to me through His Holy Spirit, and where I can personally, intimately, know Him. I need only just let my heart wait at times in perfect silence and quiet; in its hidden depths God will work. I can be sure of this, and just wait on Him. When once living faith has been awakened, it then watches for every appearing of the Divine Will; it listens and accepts every indication of the Divine Presence; it looks for and expects the fulfillment of every Divine Promise. I need only give my whole heart, with its secret workings, into God’s hands continually. He wants my heart, and takes it, and as God dwells in it. Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the LORD!
This is the blessed life of deep and intimate personal relationship with God: my waiting upon God…watching and waiting, looking off unto Him and listening for His voice…with an unwavering child-like trust and an unreserved child-like dependence, with a joyful expectation and an excited anticipation, for God to reveal to me His plans, His purposes, His will, a deeper revelation of Who He is, SO I MAY THEN RESPOND with an unquestioning child-like obedience to every leading and prompting of the Holy Spirit, cooperating with the power of His enabling grace Who works in me both to will and to do. My soul, wait thou only upon God!