XVI FOR HIS LIGHT IN THE HEART
Ps 130:5-6: I wait for the LORD, my soul doth wait, and in His Word do I hope. My soul waiteth for the Lord more than they that watch for the morning: I say, more than they that watch for the morning.
My waiting on God can have no higher object than simply having His Light shine on me, and in me, and through me, all the day. God is Light. God is a Sun. God hath shined in my heart to give His light…the Light of the Glory of God, in the face of Christ Jesus: For God, Who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, hath shined in our hearts, to give the light of the knowledge of the Glory of God in the face of Christ Jesus [2 Cor 4:6]. My heart is meant to have that Light filling and gladdening it continually and unceasingly all the day.
In nature, what do all those beautiful trees and flowers do to keep the sun shining on them? They do nothing; they simply bask in the sunshine when it comes. The tiniest flower that lifts its little head upwards is met by the same exuberance of light and blessing as flood the widest landscape. It simply counts upon it, and receives it, and enjoys it. The only difference between nature and grace is this…that what the trees and flowers do unconsciously, as they drink in the blessing of the light, I am to do consciously and deliberately…a voluntary and a loving acceptance of that Glorious Light. Just as the sun shines unconditionally on all who will simply receive it, so faith, simple faith in God’s Word and Love, is to be the opening of my eyes, the opening of my heart, to receive and enjoy the unspeakable Glory of His Grace. It is the very highest exercise of my Christian life just to abide in the Light of God, and let it, and let Him, fill me with the Light and the brightness it brings.
The Light of God is an unceasing source of joy and gladness, if only my soul will just be but still and wait on Him, if only my soul would just let God shine His Glorious Light within. I need only count on it and receive it, enjoy it and abide in it. All within me may be very dark; is that not the very best reason for waiting for the Light of God? Can I not trust the Light to expel the darkness? I do believe it will; Lord, help my unbelief! I need only just bow, even now, in stillness before God, and wait on Him to shine into me.
God is Light… eternal, inaccessible, incomprehensible…and is here shining on my heart. I have been so occupied with the rushlights of my own thoughts and my own efforts, I have never opened the shutters to let His Light in. Unbelief has kept it out. God shines! God is Light! I will take time, and just be still, and rest in the Light of God. My eyes are feeble, and the windows are not clean, but I will wait on the Lord. The Light does shine, the Light will shine in me, and make me full of Light. And I shall learn to walk all the day in the Light and the Joy of my God. More than watchmen waiteth for the morning, I say, more than they that watch for the morning, my soul waiteth for the Lord.
This is the blessed life of deep and intimate personal relationship with God: my waiting upon God…watching and waiting, looking off unto Him and listening for His voice…with an unwavering child-like trust and an unreserved child-like dependence, with a joyful expectation and an excited anticipation, for God to reveal to me His plans, His purposes, His will, a deeper revelation of Who He is, SO I MAY THEN RESPOND with an unquestioning child-like obedience to every leading and prompting of the Holy Spirit, cooperating with the power of His enabling grace Who works in me both to will and to do. My soul, wait thou only upon God!