Dear brothers and sisters in Christ…
I want to share with you a personal testimony of the Power of the Holy Spirit I recently experienced, as He sweeps over you, and anoints you.
Whenever a born-again child of God places their entire life an the altar of sacrifice… wholly surrendered unto God, wholly given for the blessings and salvation of souls… and walks in the Power of the indwelling Holy Spirit the path that our Blessed Christ Personally walked and dedicated for us…a new and living way to God through the veil, that is to say, through the veil of His flesh…the path of obedience and suffering, self-sacrifice and self-denial, death to sin and death to self…you can be sure you will become a target of Satan’s fury! All Hell will break loose against you!
During the month of July, 2020, one year ago, the Sovereign Lord allowed Hell’s onslaught to take place in my life. I was tormented and terrorized with overwhelming evil thoughts, images, and imaginations in my heart over continual stretches of time, day and night…beyond anything I had ever experienced before! It became clear that Satan’s intent was to destroy me…I am going to destroy your character, your reputation, your integrity, your testimony, your ministry!
I had known for some time in my mind, and written about, that in a child of God’s physical life, maturity is growth from the utter dependence of a baby to the complete independence and self-reliance of an adult. In a believer’s spiritual life, however, maturity is growth from independence and self-reliance to utter dependency upon God. He is most spiritually mature who lives a life of unreserved child-like dependence upon God. Just as a baby opens its mouth and cries whenever it has physical needs, so I open my mouth and cry whenever I have spiritual needs. Just as a baby is utterly and hopelessly helpless to satisfy its physical needs…and will surely physically die if no one hears its cry and comes to satisfy its needs…just so am I utterly and hopelessly helpless to satisfy my spiritual needs…and will surely spiritually die if God my Father does not hear my cry and come to satisfy my spiritual needs.
It is one thing to know this truth in your mind, but it is quite another to know this experientially! My Father allowed me to experience in my soul the horror of realizing that unless He Personally came to rescue me…I was going to surely spiritually die! [Think of Sampson as a poster-child of spiritual death.] There was absolutely no question, no hope, not the remotest possibility of my being able to do anything about it by my own efforts or in my own strength! And I was frightened and scared…continually crying out for my Father like a little child! I was experiencing something of the emotional agony that Jesus Himself experienced in the Garden that night when He began to be deeply distressed and troubled at the prospect of the cross. The Greek verbs used in the Biblical text describes an extremely acute emotion, a compound of bewilderment, fear, uncertainty and anxiety, nowhere else portrayed in such vivid terms as here: shuddering awe; deep distress; overpowering mental distress; full of terror and distress; surprised and terrified; fright and anguish.
I experienced in the depths of my soul a shuddering awe, an unimaginable and frightening horror, an abject terror, a hopeless helplessness, a stunning terror; I was horror-stricken, paralyzed with overwhelming fear, frightened unto death as I fully realized the hopeless helplessness of any prospect of my escape…the realization that I will surely die. There was no hope, no chance, no possibility that I could resist the devil, that he would flee from me. There was no hope, no chance, no possibility that I could put on the full armor of God and stand. Whatever those verses mean…I knew in the depths of my soul, beyond the shadow of any doubt, that at that moment it was humanly impossible…and I was frightened to death! The experiential reality of what it means…what it feels like…to be hopelessly powerless, hopelessly impotent, hopelessly helpless swept over me with unimaginable, inexpressible horror. Blessed Jesus…I experienced in the depths of my being something of what you experienced in the Garden that night, that caused Your sweat to be colored with droplets of Your Blood in Your unimaginably intense emotional agony.
In the Garden that night, Christ My Son was filled with terror and shuddering awe, “My soul is crushed with anguish and dread to the point of death.” He asked, “Abba, Father, everything is possible for You. If it is possible, within the framework of Your plans, Your purposes, Your will, may this cup of suffering be taken from Me.” [Father God…Mark 14:34-36]
I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sin-enslaved human nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I end up doing is not the good deeds I want to do; no, the evil deeds I do not want to do…this I keep on doing! Now if I so often end up doing what I do not want to do, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is the enslaving power of sin living in my human nature that asserts itself and does it. So I find this law at work in me: when I want to do what is right and good, evil is right there with me subjecting me to its insistent demands. For in my inner being I delight in God’s Law; but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law embraced by my regenerated mind and making me a prisoner of the indwelling principle of sin at work within the members of my body.
So then, to sum up this whole matter, such is the unchanging conflict of these two principles within me as a child of God: I myself in my regenerated mind am a willing bondslave to God’s Law, but, in the sin-enslaved human nature that still remains a part of me, a wretched slave to the rule and reign of the indwelling principle of sin. What a wretched man I am! Who, then, shall deliver me out of bondage to this indwelling law of sin and into moral freedom, where my body shall no longer serve as the seat of this shameful death? Thanks be to God…He has delivered me and set me free through my living union of oneness with Christ Jesus my Lord! [Rom 7:18-25] Hallelujah!
It was Thursday evening, July 23, 2020, when the Spirit of God led our weekly Home Bible Group Meeting into a discussion on these verses, and began to illuminate our minds to understand the rich eternal treasures that are above, in the Heavenly realms. We talked about…
- It wasn’t this way in the very beginning, Abba Father, when You first created Mankind in the person of Adam, to be the father of the human race. He had the capability and capacity to bring great glory to Your name…far greater glory than all else in the Created universe…by using his free will to freely choose to be what You created him to be, rather than to be something other than what You created him to be. And what did You create him to be… what did You create Mankind to be? A being that would freely choose to do Your will rather than its own will…a being that would live in absolute obedience to Your will, by choice. And so Adam was given the opportunity to bring great glory to Your name through the exercise of his free will to freely choose to obey Your one only command…Your one and only restriction placed on his life to test his obedience. Unfortunately, he chose to exercise the free will You had given him to do what seemed best to him…to do what he wanted…rather than to obey Your will through obedience to Your one command clearly outlined to him. As a result, the pure and holy human nature he was created with became tainted by sin, and would forevermore be enslaved by sin…human nature now a prisoner held captive by sin. Through Adam, all of Mankind has now inherited a sin-enslaved human nature…and I have no power whatsoever of my own to set myself free. I am hopelessly powerless, hopelessly impotent, hopelessly helpless to do so.
- My human nature is enslaved by sin. I have a sin-enslaved human nature that is a prisoner of sin, held captive by sin, in bondage to sin, enslaved by sin…and has no power whatsoever to free itself from sin. Nor does it even want to! I am hopelessly powerless, hopelessly impotent, hopelessly helpless to free myself from sin. I have no power to stand against temptations and sins in the power of my sin-enslaved human nature; it loves sin and desires to satisfy its own self-life and self-interests. Why, then, would I ever think that in reliance upon my human capabilities and capacities, by my own efforts and strength, I can free myself from sin? The overriding characteristic of my sin-enslaved human nature is that it is enslaved by sin. If I had the power to free myself, then it would not be a sin-enslaved human nature in the first place, and I would not be a prisoner. I could free myself and walk away from sin. But that is obviously not the case; my sin-enslaved human nature has no power to do so. It has no power to free itself from sin, and no desire to do so. For my sin-enslaved human nature has a strong desire to suppress the Holy Spirit Who dwells in me as a born-again child of God, and the Spirit constantly has a strong desire to suppress my sin-enslaved human nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that I am hindered by my sin-enslaved human nature from freely doing what I desire to do in obedience to God. [Gal 5:17]
- Life in the power of the flesh is characterized by trying rather than by trusting. It is a life requiring my continual striving and struggling; all of my efforts, redoubled efforts, and strength; all my commitments and resolutions; all my pledges and promises. Even then…the absolute weakness of my sin-enslaved human nature guarantees I will utterly fail, because by attempting to do so I will have blocked the Holy Spirit and His Power from working through me, with me, in me.
Beloved child…a life of trying in the power of your flesh ignores My Eternal provision for your living a holy and righteous life: the gift of My Holy Spirit given to dwell in you, and His eternal Power made available to you. It disregards My command to keep on being continually filled with My Holy Spirit, giving Him free reign over the conduct of your everyday life. Even just trying by your own efforts and in your own strength to live a holy and righteous life is in itself presumptuous…it presumes that you are fully capable of doing so, and do not need Me. It presumes that you can be well-pleasing in My sight in the power of your sin-enslaved human nature. It is an assertion of your self-reliance and self-sufficiency, and that you have no need for dependence upon My Holy Spirit. It is not well-pleasing to Me; it is a life of utter failure and spiritual bankruptcy! The truth of the matter is…apart from Me you can do nothing that is good, or pleasing, or acceptable to God! You can only live your life either in the Power of the Spirit or in the power of the flesh. You cannot live in both at the same time; it is either one or the other. You cannot serve 2 masters. So I say, live out each day in accordance with your new life in the Power of the indwelling Holy Spirit. Then you won’t be doing what your sinful nature craves. Those who belong to Christ Jesus have nailed the passions and desires of their sinful nature to His cross and crucified them there. Since you are now living by the Spirit, follow the Spirit’s leading in every part of your life. Always remember: Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit, says the LORD Almighty. [Gal 5:16, 24-25; Zech 4:6]
As our discussion continued along that evening under the guidance of the Holy Spirit’s leading, we were discussing Scriptures concerning how the Lord Jesus sets a believer free from the bondage of sin…that all human beings by nature have a sin-enslaved human nature…and can only be set free by Christ through His atonement for sin by virtue of His death on a cross on our behalf. When I am born again, it is as literal and real a birth as was my physical birth…and I become a new creation…a new person, whereby my former moral and spiritual condition has passed away, and all things have become new. I no longer live my life out of my sin-enslaved human nature, but now live my new life out of the divine nature of God’s Holy Spirit dwelling within me by virtue of being born again. That is why only those born-again can know, and have, and experience, the indwelling Holy Spirit.
During our discussion, the Holy Spirit swept over one of our group members and so opened up his mind and heart to this truth…in a depth he had never seen before…that he was literally, visibly, filled with a fullness of joy! He could hardly contain himself! He was wired in the Spirit, and began to testify with power about what God had done, and was continually doing, in his life! He testified that when he is tormented and terrorized with overwhelming evil thoughts, images, and imaginations in his heart [and he knew nothing about what I was going through], his God and Father reaches down and plucks His child out of Satan’s grasp and into safety, declaring with determined purpose, No! You can’t have My child; he belongs to Me! He was anointed…and continued to testify about the utter weakness of his flesh and how helpless he was to resist by his own efforts and strength, and that if he tried to do so it would only guarantee his failure! He testified how the Power of the Holy Spirit in his life was the source of his strength, and apart from Him he could do nothing! He just went on and on, carried away in the Spirit into the heavenly realms for the remainder of our meeting, continually praising God, proclaiming the Word of God with boldness and power! I just sat there and listened, thanking God for how He was touching this brother whom He was calling, and using, as the “pastor of Walmart!” And it brought to his mind a song that had so touched him…a powerful song with a powerful message…so he pulled it up on his phone and played it for us. The link is below, if you want to hear it. It is not my particular choice in Christian music…but I put myself in his place, and could embrace its powerful message as we all listened to it! The song is by CASTING CROWNS, entitled SET ME FREE: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y2HwtWLokSc
I myself was so blessed by the manifest Presence of the Holy Spirit in our meeting that evening that I never realized that God had quietly touched and anointed me as well with the “anointing of promise” that I had been desperately crying out to Him for. Over the past several weeks [actually, for a number of years…but now with an intense desperation] I had been pleading with Him for this anointing that I had been granted once before, in the Fall 1984 when I was just a 3 year old child of God, that I had lost because I had carelessly let it slip away, not appreciating in my spiritual babyhood how precious this treasure really was. I was pleading with my Father…that I could not live without it…that I could not serve as His messenger, His ministering spirit, His watchman with boldness, freedom, and confidence, with spiritual power and authority, unless I had this anointing of promise. I wasn’t asking for an anointing of privilege; that is God’s prerogative. No; I was asking for the anointing that was promised…that I had been granted once before. I knew what it was; and I knew I no longer had it. The anointing of promise is the full blessing of Pentecost…and it is only granted to those who hunger and thirst for it; whose heart is inflamed with yearning for it…to those who are wholly surrendered unto God, wholly given for the blessing and salvation of souls…to those who by faith abide in the Holy of Holies in the unclouded Presence of the Father. Blessed Jesus, You assured me: “Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness…a continual and unceasing purity, holiness, and righteousness of my own in living out my everyday life, first of all, in my hidden life in my heart, and then in both my unseen and visible physical life as well. You assured me that I will be filled…that my longing will be completely satisfied, and I will be filled up to the measure of all the fullness of God, to the richest measure of Your unclouded Presence, a soul wholly filled and flooded with God Himself! [Mt 5:6] That is the anointing of promise! And even more beyond that… Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God. [Mt 5:8]
On that evening God my Father heard the desperate cry of my heart, and quietly, silently, granted me the anointing of promise. From that evening forward, the evil thoughts, images, and imaginations in my heart still came a number of times expecting to torment and terrorize me as they had always done…but now they had absolutely no power at all, were of none effect, and weren’t even the least bother. The anointing is not just a greater power than what had been coming to torment and terrorize me; no, the anointing completely neutralizes their power so that they are meaningless and have no affect whatsoever. The anointing of promise is the greatest gift granted by God after having granted the preeminent Gifts of His Divine Son Jesus and His Holy Spirit. No child of God should ever be satisfied without having it; but as you can see from this testimony, there is a cost to the anointing. Child of God…are you willing to pay the price?
I don’t know whether in the depths of your heart you really believe there is a God in Heaven or not, but this I do know…Abba Father…Your children are continually being led by Your indwelling Holy Spirit. And You have so lovingly assured me, Your child, that I needn’t be like a cowering, fearful slave in Your Presence. Your Holy Spirit, God’s eternal gift, doesn’t make cowards out of us. He endues me with power and love and a sound mind…that I should freely abide with You as Your very Own child, adopted by birth into the bosom of Your Family, crying out unashamedly without reservation to You, “Abba, Father!” For Your Holy Spirit speaks to me deep in my heart, reassuring me that indeed I really am Your child! [Rom 8:14-17; 2 Tim 1:7]
I proclaim to you Christ Jesus…the One Who existed from the beginning, from Eternity Past, Whom I have heard with the ears of my own inner being, and have seen with my own spiritual eyes. I have gazed upon Him and have spiritually touched Him with my own hands. He is the Word of Life. His Life is continually being revealed to me; I have seen it and testify to it, and I proclaim to you that He is the One Who is Eternal Life. He always existed with the Father, and is now continually being manifested afresh and anew to me. I proclaim to you what I have personally seen and heard in the depths of my soul, so that you also may enjoy this same fellowship together with us. The fellowship I continually enjoy is with the Father and with His Son, Christ Jesus. I am writing these things so that you also may fully share together with me in this fullness of joy! [1 John 1:1-4]. It is our birth-right as a child of the Most High God!
Blessed Holy Spirit, sweep over my soul:
My beloved child…Whenever an adversity touches your life, the first thing you are to acknowledge, and embrace in your heart, is that it comes from My loving hand. Nothing can touch your life apart from My having either Personally allowed it to happen, or having caused it to do so…and all for My Own good purpose. [Father God…Phil 1:19-23]
My child…I want to reveal to you something of the rich eternal treasures from above, in the spiritual realm, that most of My children have never fully understood… have never fully grasped. Even most of My church leaders down through the ages have struggled with explaining this, and have been perplexed by this..and have never really come to the knowledge of the Truth as to why My children oftentimes suffer…why My children are subjected to so much suffering, and seemingly so often. And yet, the explanation is so simple…a child can understand it. It is so simple, though, that only a child can embrace it. The Truth is…whenever adversities and suffering touch your life, I have specifically, consciously, and deliberately allowed it to do so, or I have Personally caused it to do so…because I have laid aside a blessing I want you to have, a blessing of such a nature that it can only be appropriated by your patiently enduring the adversity I have allowed to touch your life. No matter how deep your sadness or sorrow, how intense your crying and pain, no matter how overwhelming your grief and loneliness and brokenheartedness…it comes from My loving hand. No matter how debilitating the physical disorders, diseases, illnesses; no matter how great the pressure and trials of insults, hardships, persecutions, perplexities and distresses; no matter how sorely troubled and vexed by various pressures, trials and afflictions that worry and weary a human soul…I have Personally allowed it to touch your life for My Own good purpose.
In the life of My child, ** **, there is no such thing as a random occurrence, an accidental happening, an incidental incident. Nothing can touch the life of My child unless I allow it to do so. I am the Sovereign-All Ruler over all Creation, and I exercise My Sovereignty perfectly over all things…immediately, completely, and continually over all things. All that I do or allow, My beloved child, is the very best, very kindest, most loving thing that can possibly be…and I make all things work together for your good. Have you never understood? I love you with a fathomless love; My love for you is unconditional, unfailing, unchanging, unending…eternal and everlasting, a love that will never perish, spoil, or fade!
So why are you bewildered by the fiery trial that has come upon you, as though some strange thing has happened to you? Don’t you yet understand that I Myself have Personally allowed it to touch your life…and for My Own good purpose? You must follow the example of Christ My Son and go into the Garden, there to walk along the same Path that He walked…the Path of obedience and suffering, self-sacrifice and self-denial, death to sin and death to self. For the joy of the blessings set before Him…the joy of seeing sinners saved; the joy of reconciling sinners back to God; the joy of restoring your relationship with Me that had been severed by sin; the joy of repairing that mirror of the Almighty you were meant to be that had been shattered by sin…for the joy of securing these eternal blessing on your behalf, My Divine Son Jesus patiently endured the cross, heedless of its shame. [Heb 12:2]
** **, greatly beloved…in the midst of the deepest sadness and sorrow, the most intense crying and pain, overwhelming grief and loneliness and brokenheartedness…no matter how furious the storm raging in your life…no matter how fierce the tempest whipping the waves into a tumultuous, churning turmoil… beneath the surface, in the depths of God, all is peaceful and calm, all is tranquil and unruffled. Through it all, My beloved child, you can rest in Me in an unruffled child-like rest; you can abide with Me with an unclouded, child-like, carefree joy…because you trust in Me with an unwavering child-like trust, you depend upon Me with an unreserved child-like dependence, you have set your heart to obey My will, and to accept My will, with an unquestioning child-like obedience. You can drift off to sleep in the back of the boat in the midst of a fierce storm [Mark 4:35-40]…knowing I have allowed this vexation to touch your life because of a blessing I have Personally laid aside for you that I want you to have…a blessing of such a nature that it can only be appropriated by your patiently enduring the adversity I allowed to touch your life. For the joy of the blessing you know by faith I have set aside for you, you can then patiently endure the adversity, heedless of its vexation. Yes, you can be sure…In that Glorious coming Day, I will wipe away every tear from your eyes; and death shall be no more. There shall be no more sadness and sorrow, no more crying and pain, no more grief and loneliness and brokenheartedness…for the old conditions and the former order of things shall have passed away. [Rev 21:4]
Knowing that I have Personally allowed these adversities to touch your life,
** **, why, then, are you frightened? Why are you downcast; why so vexed? Do you still have no faith? Are you still unwilling to trust with an unwavering child-like trust in My unfailing Love for you, and in My absolute Sovereignty over all Creation? Child of the Most High God! If only you would know in the depths of your soul, if only you would just fully embrace, the greatness of My love I have lavished upon you…that you are named as My Own child! You are My child by birth and by Blood…the Blood of Christ My Son, poured out on your behalf on that cross at Calvary for the forgiveness of your sins!
The Anchor Holds:
Then I saw in the right hand of Him Who sat on the Throne a scroll with writing on both sides and sealed with seven seals…the title-deeds to God’s wonderfully created Earth that had been forfeited and mortgaged to Satan and his seed, detailing within the required price and particulars for the redemption of that inheritance thus forfeited and disponed away by Adam’s sin. And I saw a mighty angel proclaiming in a loud voice, “Who is worthy to break the seals and open the scroll?” But no one in Heaven or on Earth or under the Earth could satisfy the requirements to open the scroll or even look inside it. I wept and wept with uncontrollable grief because no one was found who was worthy to open the scroll or look inside…that all the promises of the prophets, and all the hopes of the saints, and all the pre-intimations of a redeemed world, and the very redemption of the purchased possession, was thus to end in abject failure! Then one of the elders said to me, “Do not weep! See, the Lion of the tribe of Judah, the Root of David, He has triumphed over sin and death. He has paid the redemption price of the forfeited inheritance, and thus He is the true Go’el (OT:1350) Who is able to open the scroll and break forever its debarring seven seals.”
Then I saw a Lamb, looking as if it had been slain, yet alive forever and ever, standing in the center of the Throne, encircled by the four living creatures and the elders. He overcame by His perfect obedience unto death, and paid the price of redemption in His meek sufferings, bearing our sins in His own body and vanquishing all legal disabilities by His atoning Blood, and thereby is adjudged worthy to take the scroll and to open its seals. He had seven horns…bespeaking His Sovereign Power, and majesty, and invincible strength…and seven eyes, which are the seven spirits of God in His all-penetrating fullness of intellectual and spiritual power sent out into all the Earth. He came and took the scroll from the right hand of Him Who sat on the Throne…that momentous act for which all Creation has ever so patiently waited for and longed for…the lifting of the title-deeds of the alienated inheritance…the legal act of repossession of all that was lost in Adam, paid for by the Blood and tears of the Son of God! He was thereby now assuming His role and was now to begin His reign on Earth as the King of kings, and the Lord of lords. The appointed time had now come for the rightful owner of the estate to enforce the indignation of that Throne against all who stand in rebellion against it, preparations having already been made for the sending forth in succession with the breaking of each seal a strong Destroyer in fierce assault upon the enemies and usurpers who occupy the Earth! The universe is stricken with awe, and Heaven looks on in solemn silence as that act of taking possession of the scroll is being performed; and when He had taken it, there went an ineffable thrill through the universal heart of all Creation, and the four living creatures and the twenty-four elders fell down in adoring wonder and joy before the Lamb! Each one had a harp in remembrance of what all His holy prophets have ever prophesied and sung about concerning the fulfillment of God’s promised event, and they were holding golden bowls full of sweet incense before God and before the Lamb, which are the, until now, unanswered volumes and oceans of prayers of the saints that have ever entreated their God that “Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done, on Earth as it is in Heaven.” And they sang a new song…a song which had never before been sung:
“You are worthy to take the scroll and to open its seals,
because You were slain, and with Your Blood
You purchased men…even us…for God
from every tribe and language and people and nation!
You have made them to be a kingdom and priests to serve our God,
and they, whom we are privileged to represent,
will now begin our promised reign on the Earth forever and ever!”
Then I looked and heard the voice of many angels, numbering thousands upon thousands, and ten thousand times ten thousand! They encircled the Throne and the living creatures and the elders. In a loud voice echoing through the depths of space, they sang:
“Worthy is the Lamb, Who was slain,
to receive power and wealth and wisdom and strength
and honor and glory and praise!”
Then wider and still wider spread the sympathetic response of adoring rapture, as I heard every creature in Heaven and on Earth and under the Earth and on the sea, and all that is in them, singing:
“To Him Who sits on the Throne and to the Lamb
be praise and honor and glory and power, for ever and ever!”
The four living creatures said, “Amen,” and the elders fell down and worshiped! [Revelation 5:1-14]
Friends, brothers and sisters…
There is one absolutely necessary preparation for every living soul on the face of this Earth, for the soon coming and imminent return of Jesus Christ…the one preparation that will irrevocably determine in which neighborhood you will spend all eternity, whether in Heaven or in Hell. You must be a born-again child of God. I tell you the truth, unless you are born again, you cannot be in God’s Kingdom. I tell you the truth, no one can ever enter the Kingdom of God unless you are born of water and the Spirit. Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit gives birth to spirit. You should not be surprised at My saying you must be born again. [Jesus…John 3:3-7]
If you have never been born again,
or you are not sure whether you have been born again,
or you have been living your life as a lukewarm Christian and would now like to recommit your life and enter into a deep and intimate relationship with Christ Jesus in preparation for the soon coming marriage supper of the Lamb…
then I counsel you to get alone with God, read the solemn marriage vows you must make to become the bride of Christ and thereby be born-again, [https://preservechristianfamily.org/2019/01/21/bride-of-christ/], and with sincerity of heart from within the depths of your being, acknowledge before God, “I DO.”