Twenty-Two

ITS CERTAINTY OF BLESSING

Thou shalt know that I am the LORD: for none shall be ashamed that wait for Me. Blessed indeed are all they that wait for Him. My soul waiteth for the LORD: He is my help and my shield. My heart shall rejoice in Him, for I have trusted in His Holy Name. [Isa 49:23; 30:18; Ps 33:20-21]

My beloved child…Have I not Myself promised: “They shall not be ashamed that wait for Me.” Waiting upon God most assuredly can never be in vain! Your blessed waiting upon Me must and can be the very breath of your life, a continuous resting in God’s Presence and My Love, an unceasing yielding of yourself for Me to perfect My work in you.  In My promises, I, the Living God, have bound Myself to you for your blessing. I instruct you to wait upon Me **        **.  I assure you that you shall not be put to shame; that I will indeed reveal Myself in My hidden Glory. Oh that your heart might learn to wait before Me, until I reveal to you what My promises mean, and in My promises reveal Myself in My hidden Glory! “My soul waiteth for the Lord: He is my help and my shield.”

The perception of Who God is in your mind is not the measure of faith or power, My child.  No…it is what you really know of Me in your personal experience, conquering the enemies within, reigning and ruling, revealing Myself in My Holiness and Power in your inmost being…it is this will be the real measure of the spiritual blessing you expect from Me, and bring to your brothers and sisters.  It is as you know how blessed the waiting upon God has become to your own soul, that you shall confidently hope in the blessing to come on your brethren and the Church around you. From what I have Personally done in you, you shall be enabled to trust Me to do mighty things around you.

Child of God! You are to embrace this truth, and allow it to get full possession of your soul: that waiting upon God is itself the highest privilege of the creature, the highest blessedness of My redeemed child. The promised blessing may tarry; even so, the unutterable blessedness of knowing and having Me…the One Who has promised, the Divine Blesser, the Living Fountain of the coming blessings…is even now yours. In the greatness and the tenderness of My Love, The Everlasting God meets each waiting child, to shine in your heart “the light of the knowledge of the Glory of God in the Face of Christ Jesus.” You need only just bow in emptiness and poverty and utter impotence, in humiliation and meekness, and surrender to My will before My great Glory, and be still and know that I AM GOD. As you wait upon Me, God draws nigh. I will reveal Myself as the God Who will fulfill mightily My every promise. And you are simply to let your heart take up the song, “Blessed are all they that wait upon Him.”

My brothers ans sisters in Christ…I want to share a personal testimony to illustrate how blessed waiting upon God has become to my own soul, that you shall confidently hope in blessings to come upon you as well…that our God will indeed reveal Himself to His children in His hidden Glory! “I give waters in the wilderness and rivers in the desert, to give drink to my people…My chosen, the people I formed for Myself…that they may set forth My praise…and they shall do it. Sing forth the Honor and Glory of His Name; make His praise glorious!” [Isa 43:20-21; Ps 66:2]

Quite suddenly…at least I thought during those winter months of 2008…I became increasingly aware that while driving along Florida’s highways I was having difficulty reading the road signs until I was right on top of them. Upon examination, my eye doctor told me I had cataracts in both eyes, and that I needed cataract surgery. We decided to start with the left eye, and scheduled surgery for June 5th.

The surgeon had also been my eye doctor for the past year and a half, and had been strongly recommended by my own physician. I was looking forward to seeing clearly again, as with the cataracts in both eyes I was no longer able to feel comfortable with highway driving. Instead, the surgery seemed to progress very badly, taking four times longer than would normally be the case!

Since you are awake during cataract surgery, I could hear the surgeon talking with his assistant…”he has deep-set eyes; I can’t do this from the side. I am going to have to try doing this from the top.” “This suction tube is not working; get me another one.” And a number of other disconcerting comments as the surgery seemed to go on and on!  I was becoming increasingly uncomfortable! Finally…it was finished; I breathed a sigh of relief.

The vision in my eye after surgery was quite bad…as well as hazy and cloudy. Five days after the surgery, I began to see pronounced double vision out of the left eye. I decided to have an independent evaluation by another Ophthalmologist/surgeon. It was then I learned that there had been significant damage to the eye as a result of the surgery. He told me, “Whoever did this surgery really butchered your eye“…which he proceeded to enumerate in painful detail, concluding with, “Unfortunately, there is nothing that can be done to repair the damage.” The prognosis was that as a result of the damage, my eye was at high risk to develop complications in the months and years ahead. I was told quite emphatically, “You will NEVER see any better out of that eye than you do right now (a hazy, cloudy, 20/40)…and it cannot be improved with eyeglasses.”

I was devastated! I cried out to the Lord, “Why, Lord!? You could have warned me beforehand about this surgeon; You could have prevented this from happening! Why did You allow my eye to be so badly damaged!?” Night after night I would sit in my recliner, crying out to the Lord in my sadness, sorrow, and grief. I thought about my next door neighbor…Jim…who was blind and got around with a seeing-eye dog. Not many years prior he had been a school administrator and was just fine…until suddenly he began losing his sight, and doctors were not able to determine why. I thought about Joni Eareckson Tada, a Christian woman who is quadriplegic and yet has been used by the Lord over these many years in a wonderful and powerful world-wide ministry. At the age of 17…a young, vibrant teenager…she had a terrible swimming accident, and ended up in a wheelchair handicapped for life. But she certainly was not disabled; the Lord, Who had Personally allowed this accident to happen for His Own good purposes, has given her an incredible ministry!

I spent the next three months lamenting before the Lord, and thinking about Jim and Joni. I reflected on what I knew in my mind to be true about God…that He is the Sovereign All-Ruler over all Creation, and nothing could touch my life unless He Personally allowed it to do so. I knew He loved me with a fathomless love, and all that He allows to touch my life is necessarily the very best, very kindest, most loving thing that could be possible be. I knew that He only allows adversities for His Own good purpose, and that He makes all things work together for good for those who love Him. I knew that He had a blessing laid aside for me that He wanted me to have…a blessing of such a nature that it could only be appropriated by my patiently enduring this adversity He allowed to touch my life.  But I didn’t know I would actually have to embrace in my heart and life what I had only known, until now, in my mind!

I knew that God could stretch out His hand and heal my eye if He wanted to; I had fervently asked, but He hadn’t. Finally, I came to the realization, and acceptance, that the Lord consciously and deliberately allowed this to happen, and for His own good purpose. In the power of His enabling grace, I became able to say, “Lord, I don’t understand, but I trust You.” I had to finally get to the place where I could say to the Lord, and know that I meant it in my heart,Lord…there is nothing You could ask of me…to be for You or to do for You…that would be unreasonable, or too much to ask, in light of what You have Personally done for me in redeeming my soul. If I am to become blind, then I accept that as Your will. Lord…just show me Your plans, Your purposes, Your will for me in allowing this to happen, and work in me by Your Holy Spirit both the desire to obey Your will and the power to do Your will.”  That was the place of absolute surrender where my Father had all along wanted me to get to, and waited so patiently for me to appropriate the blessing He had laid aside for me and was to be mine!

My absolute surrender to God’s will, and acceptance of His will…when I said in my heart, “Not my will, but Thy will be done,” took place on Monday evening, September 15th…the same place His Divine Son Jesus had gotten to in the Garden of Gethsemane that night when He uttered these words: “If it not possible for this cup of suffering to pass from me unless I drink it, then not My will, but Thy will be done.” The next day when I awakened, Tuesday morning, I quite suddenly noticed I was seeing a whole lot better out of that left eye! I remarked to the Lord, “Wow! I see better out of my damaged eye than I do out of my right eye!” The following Tuesday, September 23rd, I had an appointment with my new eye doctor…the one who had said, “You will NEVER see any better out of that eye.” He was dumbfounded! The reading on the damaged eye was now a clear, sharp 20/30 with no double vision, and was corrected by refraction to 20/20! I had the new eyeglass lens for the left eye made (the prescription was much weaker than what I used to wear), and, sure enough, I was now seeing with clear 20/20 vision!

I wondered whether the Lord had miraculously restored my vision out of a damaged eye, or whether He had healed the damage, resulting in restored vision. And so I scheduled an appointment for Monday, September 29th, with another Ophthalmologist/surgeon for an independent examination/evaluation of my left eye (I did not advise him beforehand of anything that had taken place, other than that there had been cataract surgery done on that eye). His prognosis? “Your eye is in very good condition, and you are seeing well! You have 20/20 vision.”  A miraculous healing confirmed!  Hallelujah!

I don’t know whether in the depths of your heart you really believe there is a God in Heaven or not, but this I know…my eye was damaged beyond repair, and now it is no longer damaged but perfectly fine. [Read John 9:1-39]  Oh Lord!…I have gazed attentively upon You in the sanctuary and I have beheld Your Power and Your Glory. Formerly, my ears had only heard of You; but now my eyes have seen You and have seen Your Glory! In the presence of the congregation, I will proclaim Your Great Name and Your Mighty Power according to all that my eyes have seen! Surely, I will enter Your gates with thanksgiving, I will come into Your courts with praise! Because Your steadfast Love for me is better than life, my lips continually proclaim Your Glory! My lips shout for joy as I sing praises to You…I, whom You have redeemed! You turned my wailing into dancing! You removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy…that my heart may sing to You and not be silent! O Lord my God, I will give You thanks forever and ever, throughout the eternal ages! I will praise You as long as I have life, and in honor to Your Name, I lift my hands and worship You! Every day I will bless You and adore You, Precious Lord; yes, I will praise Your wonderful Name forever and ever! O Lord, open my lips, and my mouth will declare Your praises; with singing lips my mouth overflows with Your praises! I will open my mouth and offer up unto You a sacrifice of praise, the fruit of my lips, worshiping You for Who You are…the One True Living God; praising You for all You have done for the souls of Man down through the ages; gratefully acknowledging, with a heart of thanksgiving, all You have Personally done for me. My soul shall forever be satisfied, as with the richest of foods! I feast on the abundance of Your house, Lord; You give me drink from Your River of delights!

My brothers and sisters…I proclaim to you Christ Jesus…the One Who existed from the beginning, from Eternity Past, Whom I have heard with the ears of my own inner being, and have seen with my own spiritual eyes. I have gazed upon Him and have spiritually touched Him with my own hands. He is the Word of Life. His Life is continually being revealed to me; I have seen it and testify to it, and I proclaim to you that He is the One Who is Eternal Life. He always existed with the Father, and is now continually being manifested afresh and anew to me. I proclaim to you what I have personally seen and heard in the depths of my soul, so that you also may enjoy this same fellowship together with us. The fellowship I continually enjoy is with the Father and with His Son, Christ Jesus. I am writing these things so that you also may fully share together with me in this fullness of joy. [1 John 1:1-4].  It is our birth-right, through the Eternal Power of the indwelling Holy Spirit, as children of the Most High God!

Abba Father…this is the blessed life of deep and intimate personal relationship with God: my waiting upon God…watching and waiting, looking off unto You and listening for Your voice…with an unwavering child-like trust and an unreserved child-like dependence, with a joyful expectation and an excited anticipation, for You to reveal Yourself to me ever more deeply and intimately, and Your plans, Your purposes, Your will for me…SO I MAY THEN RESPOND, with an unquestioning child-like obedience, to every leading and prompting of the Holy Spirit, cooperating with the power of His enabling grace Who works in me both to will and to do.

My soul, wait thou only upon God! [https://preservechristianfamily.org/2019/05/10/waiting-upon-god/]

 

3 thoughts on “Twenty-Two

  1. Thank you for your testimony. I believe in healing miracles taking place all the time and hearing and reading about them gives me hope as I enter my 7th year of fighting chronic Lyme Disease. I believe in miracles, but in the meantime I have fully committed my life to serving the Lord, even from my sick bed. Blessings to you.

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    1. Thank you for your comment; I appreciate it. I have an entire section of personal testimonies on this website that I believe would be a blessing and an encouragement to you: https://preservechristianfamily.org/category/testimonies/
      There is a young girl [early 20s] suffering and struggling for 4 years now with Lyme disease…the daughter of a dear brother in the Lord. If you think you can be of any help, here is her father’s [Randy] E-mail: randy.wallin@gmail.com. Lord bless.

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