THE GOD OF MY SALVATION
My soul waiteth only upon [is silent unto] God: from Him cometh my salvation. [Ps 62:1]
My beloved child…since salvation indeed comes solely and only from God, and is entirely My work, just as your creation was…it follows, as a matter of course, that your first and highest responsibility is to wait on God to do that work in you which pleases Me. Haven’t you yet understood? I know the plans I have for you…plans to prosper you, and not to harm you; plans to give you a sure hope and a wonderful future. You are My workmanship, created in Christ Jesus My Son to do the good works I Myself have planned in advance for you to do. Every day of your life has been recorded in My Book before you were born, before you ever began to breathe. So why, then, are you so careless about spending time waiting upon Me, for Me to reveal to you My plans, purposes, and will for you? All that My Church needs, as well as each of its individual members, for the manifestation of My Mighty Power in your lives and in the world, is your return to the true place that belongs to you both in Creation and redemption, the place of absolute and unceasing dependence upon God. All the difficulties keeping you back from experiencing My full blessings of Pentecost that belong to you in the fullness of your salvation have their cause in this one thing: the defective knowledge and practice of waiting upon God.
Abba Father..I realize that my great need is to cultivate this grace and, at any price, learn its blessed secret! You, as Creator, formed me to be a vessel in which You could show forth Your Power and Goodness! It was never intended for me to have in myself a fountain of life, or strength, or happiness…the ever-living and only Living One was each moment to be the Communicator to me of all that I needed. My glory and blessedness was not to be independent, or dependent upon myself, but to wholly and entirely depend with an unreserved child-like dependence upon You, Father…a God of such infinite riches and love…and to have the joy of receiving every moment out of Your fullness the riches of Your grace. After mankind’s fall, there was not the slightest hope of recovery out of my state of death but in God, Your Power, and Your Mercy. It is You alone Who began the work of redemption through Your Divine Son Jesus; it is You alone Who continues and carries it on each moment in me, as well as in each of Your children, through Your indwelling Holy Spirit. Even in the regenerate soul there is no power of goodness in myself; I have and can have nothing that I do not each moment receive from You. Waiting on God is just as indispensable, and must be just as continuous and unbroken, as the breathing that maintains my physical life! Continually and unceasingly day and night, I need to breathe in that breath of life that comes from Your Holy Spirit and sustains my spiritual life…just the same as my lungs need, continually and unceasingly, to breathe in that breath of live that comes from the outside air and sustains my physical life!
My child…yes, your one great need is to realize, in the depths of your being, your absolute poverty and helplessness, your absolute and unceasing dependence upon Me… the unspeakable blessedness of continually waiting upon God to BE ALL and to DO ALL in you. Waiting on God then becomes your highest hope and joy as you look, with a joyful expectation and an excited anticipation, to receive each moment what I by My Holy Spirit each moment work. If only you would take time to learn and more fully apprehend how I, as God, as Infinite Love, delight to impart My Own Nature to My child as fully as you give me free reign to do so, how I am not weary of each moment keeping charge of your life and strength, how all that you would ever need or want or desire comes from waiting upon Me! It is the ascribing to Me the Glory of being ALL; it is the experiencing that I am indeed ALL to you. God unceasingly giving and working; My child unceasingly waiting and receiving. This is the blessed life, **(your name)**!
Abba Father…enable me by the Power of Your enabling grace to embrace this blessed life of deep and intimate personal relationship with You: my waiting upon God… watching and waiting, looking off unto You and listening for Your voice…with an unwavering child-like trust and an unreserved child-like dependence, with a joyful expectation and an excited anticipation…for God to reveal to me Your plans, Your purposes, Your will, and a deeper revelation of Who You are…SO I MAY THEN RESPOND, with an unquestioning child-like obedience, to every leading and prompting of the Holy Spirit, cooperating with the Power of His enabling grace Who works in me both to will and to do.
******I do understand, Father, but enable me to more fully embrace the Eternal Provision made for Your children…the gift of Your Eternal Holy Spirit given to dwell in me, never to leave me, never to forsake me. And Your purpose for doing so was for me to give Him free reign in my life to place me where You want me to be, lead me where You want me to go, show me what You want me to do to participate with You in Your work, give me the thoughts You want me to think and present, the words You want me to speak or to write. Abba Father…I want to follow the example of Your Divine Son Jesus: I only do what My Father shows Me to do, I only speak the words He gives Me to speak.
Behold the One on Whom I am waiting!…the Everlasting and Almighty One, Who offers His Everlasting Creator-Strength to work in me, Who carries me in His Jehovah- Strength as I ride upon the wings of His Omnipotence. You, O Lord, are the One Who made the heavens, Who made the Earth by Your Power, Who founded the world by Your wisdom and stretched out the heavens by Your understanding, Who created the North and the South, Who establishes order in the heights of Heaven, Who spreads out the northern skies over empty space, Who suspends the Earth over nothing, Who causes the pillars of the heavens to quake, aghast at Your rebuke, Who shakes the Earth from its place and makes its pillars tremble, Who marks out the horizon on the face of the waters for a boundary between light and darkness, Who is the Maker of the constellations and all their starry hosts, Who seals off the light of the stars, Who speaks to the sun and it does not shine, Who alone stretches out the heavens and treads on the waves of the sea, Who rules over the surging sea and by Your Power churns up the sea, Who sends lightning with the rain and brings out the wind from Your storehouses, Who moves mountains without their knowing it, Who makes clouds rise from the ends of the Earth, Who wraps up the waters in Your clouds, yet the clouds do not burst under their weight, Who covers the face of the full moon, spreading Your clouds over it, Who by Your breath the skies became fair, Who scatters Your enemies like dust, Who performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted. And these are but the outer fringe of Your works; how faint the whisper we hear of You! Who, then, can understand the thunder of Your Power? When You pass me, I cannot see You; when You go by, I cannot perceive You. If You snatch away, who can stop You? Who can say to You, “What are You doing?” Dominion and awe belong to You, Lord God Almighty; the heavens are Yours, and Yours also the Earth! You are worthy, my Lord and God, to receive with awe-filled praise all the Glory and Honor and Power, for You created all things, and by Your will they were created and have their very being! Splendor and majesty are before You! Your wisdom is profound, Your Power is vast! Righteousness and justice are the foundation of Your Throne; love and faithfulness go before You! Blessed are those who have learned to acclaim You, who walk in the light of Your Presence, O LORD! I rejoice in Your Name all day long; I exult in Your righteousness! For You are my glory and my strength, and by Your favor You exalt our horn! Indeed, my shield belongs to You, O LORD, my rule belongs to the Holy One! My soul, wait thou only upon God!