A PLEA IN PRAYER
Ps 25:21: Let integrity and uprightness preserve me; for I wait on Thee.
It is a great thing for a soul not only to wait upon God, but to be filled with such a consciousness that its whole spirit and position is that of a waiting one…that it can, in child-like confidence, say, “Lord! Thou knowest, I wait on Thee!” If I draw nigh to God, it must be with a true heart. My soul must know that it allows nothing sinful, nothing doubtful; if it is indeed to meet the Holy One, and receive His full blessing, it must be with a heart wholly, only, always, given up to His will. A soul cannot seek close fellowship with God, or attain the abiding consciousness of waiting on Him all the day, without a very honest and entire surrender to all His will. The whole spirit that animates me in my waiting must be, “Let integrity and uprightness…Thou seest that I desire so to come to Thee; Thou knowest I am looking to Thee to work them perfectly in me; let them…preserve me, for I wait on Thee.”
“For I wait on Thee.” It must be clear to me what, specifically, I am waiting on God for. It may be, in my times of prayer, waiting for God to take His place as God, and to work in me the sense of His Holy Presence and nearness. It may be a special petition, to which I am expecting an answer. It may be my whole inner life, in which I am on the lookout for God’s putting forth of His Power. It may be the whole state of His Church and saints, or some part of His work, for which my eyes are ever toward Him. It is good that I sometimes count up to myself exactly what the things are I am waiting for, and as I say definitely of each of them, “On Thee do I wait,” I shall be emboldened to claim the answer… “For on Thee do I wait.”
It must also be clear to me on Whom it is that I am waiting…the living God, such as He really is in His great Glory, His infinite Holiness, His Power, Wisdom, and Goodness, in His Love and nearness; the Lord God Almighty. It is the Presence of God, as He can in Christ by His Holy Spirit make Himself known to me, and keep my soul under its covering and shadow, that will waken and strengthen the true waiting spirit. I need only be still and wait and worship, till I know how near He is, and then say, “On Thee do I wait.” And then let it be clear that I am indeed waiting: “On Thee I do wait all the day; I wait on Thee.” This will indeed imply sacrifice and separation, a soul entirely given up to God as its ALL, its only joy.
This waiting on God has hardly yet been acknowledged as the only true Christianity. And yet, If I truly believe that God is, and does, all that He Himself has revealed; if it be true that God alone is Goodness and Joy and Love; if it be true that my highest blessedness is in having as much of God as I can; if it be true that Christ has redeemed me wholly for God, and made a life of continual abiding in His Presence possible, nothing less ought to satisfy than to be ever breathing this blessed atmosphere, “I wait on Thee.”
This is the blessed life of deep and intimate personal relationship with God: my waiting upon God…watching and waiting, looking off unto Him and listening for His voice…with an unwavering child-like trust and an unreserved child-like dependence, with a joyful expectation and an excited anticipation, for God to reveal to me His plans, His purposes, His will, a deeper revelation of Who He is, SO I MAY THEN RESPOND with an unquestioning child-like obedience to every leading and prompting of the Holy Spirit, cooperating with the power of His enabling grace Who works in me both to will and to do. My soul, wait thou only upon God!